Getting Deep up in Here

I'm just sitting here avoiding my homework again.  Imagine that.  But I was scrolling through some pictures on my phone.  Is it not crazy how someone can go from being a nobody to being one of the most important people in your life, or vice versa.  I was just thinking about a year ago.  I barely knew the guy I am seriously considering spending the rest of my life with, while the girl that was once my best friend, I can barely stand.  How is it that someone who knew nothing for you, would later take a bullet for you, while the one person that you thought you knew better than you knew yourself would stab you in the back, rip out your heart and run it through their magic bullet?

I never would have thought my life would ever be where it is now.  I honestly can say I never thought I would live this long.  Every little girl knows what she wants to do when she is itty bitty, but as I have gotten older I have really struggled with what I want do.  I went from wanting to be a teacher, to a coach, to an Ag loan officer, to just hoping she could be a good mom and wife.  I still struggle an immense amount with what I want to be, do , who I am.  They say that you learn who you are when you are going to college.  I am still up in the air.  Who am I what do I like? I change on a daily basis.  I like looking nice, but I also only like to have to look nice about once a week.  I like looking pretty but I sure hope they say more about my character and my work ethic than they ever do about my looks.

I sure am struggling with who I am, and who I am inevitably going to become.




Ps.  Sorry about how random this blog gets sometimes.  I don't really have a defined "theme" for this blog.  It's just my random thoughts.  I like to write but I need to get better at it!  Feel free to comment your feelings and thoughts as well.  Anything you guys want me to write about too! Feel free to email me @ shaylee.hance@gmail.com!